by Carolyn Lucier

Saturday, July 6, 2019

Dear Diary,

Hey, it’s me (again). Today was a BIG day! I participated in my first dragon boat race with the Knot A Breast (KAB) Breast Cancer Survivor Team at the Hamilton Waterfest Dragon Boat Festival.

I am what KAB calls a “newbie”. As new members of this high-caliber team, we spend our first year learning the dragon boat paddling technique, and how the team works together to move the boat, and we get to race in one “newbie race”. For me, that was Waterfest.

That’s me, on the left with the other 2019 “newbies” and Coach Kathy, 4th from the left.

There was so much going through my mind and body: the butterflies at the starting line, the adrenaline pumping as we fought our way through those 200 metres, my desire to do my best for our team. As I’ve gotten older, the adage “a first time for everything” has been used less and less… but not today! The exhilaration of doing something new is even better now than it ever was, especially thinking back to where I’ve been over the past few years.

And coming off the water today, that’s exactly what I was doing – thinking back to everything that brought me to that moment. Isn’t it strange how some of the best things can come out of our worst moments? Going through a life-altering event like breast cancer really made me realize how important my health was, and what I had to lose (and when you only have one body, that means everything). Anyways, you know how I started off slow, walking around the neighbourhood and paddle boarding at the cottage, inching my way towards going to the gym (the gym!). Finally, after meeting with other members of Knot A Breast, I took the plunge and joined the team at winter indoor training.

That’s our team, lane 4, 2nd from the left, at the start line with a mixture of butterflies and adrenaline!

When I was diagnosed with breast cancer and started noticing negative changes in my body, I vowed to get out of that place. Now, I only notice positive changes – I can do jumping jacks again!! I am in the best physical shape I’ve been in, in a long time. And I’ve been inducted into a community of amazing women that I can learn from and share with. Their mentorship and strength have been exactly the things I needed to push me along on this journey. I don’t look at Knot A Breast as being a group of women with breast cancer, I see us as a group of women committed to our goals, our health, and each other. Through every missed stroke (many!) and every accidental splash (sorry!), I have stayed motivated through my team’s words of encouragement.

And here I am! The race is over, my blood is pumping, and it feels sooooooo gooooood to be in this place. I knew what was important in my life all along, it just took a little coaxing, you know? I know you know. Anyways, that’s enough for today, dear Diary; I think the harbour water is going to my head!

With gratitude, Carolyn

PS: We won a bronze medal!